A special birthday

Today, 19-06-2014 is my birthday. 56 Years ago I was born. Never ever I could have thought that my life would go as it goes today. I had many challenges during my childhood although it was a good time.
I remember myself as a bright kid, full of energy, fantasy, creativity and joy. And then belief systems were embedded in my being, sometimes not active yet, but the triggers to activate them were available and during the first 40 years of my life they have all been activated. And fear sneaked in by looking at the examples I was shown by the world. I was afraid to tell my stories, my experiences because the reactions of people around made me not happy at all.  I felt the weird one, and I learned to behave well in society and I played the game very well.

Until I decided it was enough and wanted to feel and experience the real me. An intense period of many years followed in which I remembered myself. I began to understand why it was, that I was looking for and running into the things I feared, facing all the believe systems in exact those situations that could make them worse, or could acknowledge them to become stronger. Life was summoning me to start living without those fears and systems. Without knowing it, I was running my old programs while I knew that new ones were ready to start. And then my major wake up call happened! Before being "reborn" at the hospital I had visited that place where I could decide to rest or to reprogram my life. I've chosen for the last one obviously. And then, with many visits to seminars, workshops, healings and friends my life began blooming and blossoming. 

This song send to me by a dear friend says it all, the new journey started:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eFXRQKYFbXE
(sorry about the add which comes automatically with it)

I rediscovered my creativity, my fantasy, I believed in dreaming again, got new friends and I was growing a firm trust in life itself. I began to play with life and the abundant energy available on earth.
And now I am celebrating my anniversary. Harmony, joy, abundance, freedom, light, love, is radiating through me and every day is a great and wonderful magical journey. I really feel blessed to have had the opportunity to change my life and to live in the flow of endless source.

And today, I received all these heartwarming wishes with blessings, wise and loving words from beautiful friends all over the world. I tried to thank everyone in person and at some time I could not hold the pace, that many messages came in. Let me assure you that I will read them all and every message is touching my heart, for which I thank you. If for some reason I missed someone in person, please know that you are in my heart. Also know that all of you made a difference in my life. Many thanks to my loving wife and daughters who are still a great support in unfolding my life and finding my purpose. I love them deeply.

And you dear reader, friend, yes you. You were and are a great gift in my life. You gave me exactly what I needed to discover my direction in life. I know it was not always easy for you but you played your part very well. I am very grateful to know you and I hope sincerely that we will meet in tine someday and will play together while laughing out loud.

Love you from heart to heart,

Living With Love, Light, Laughter

Peter

The illusion of time

Dear reader,
These blogs are all about my experiences. I have heard often the feedback that it resonates with others and that it is helpful to them. Sometimes it is nice to read other one's story to get an idea or a glimpse of their way of experiencing, their journey. For me, reading always helped to get another perspective, another view on my story. Therefore I like to share one of my experiences, not only to get more clarity for myself, but also because I like sharing. And if only one person is helped with it, it was already worthwhile.
So enjoy.

What is it with time nowadays? There is a load of information about time available, but for me, it gets real when I myself can experience it. And I am, although it is not quite clear how I have to describe it.
I used to see time as something that consists of experiences in the past, the now or in the future. That always worked out well for me. I have heard about time being linear and it did fit well in my mind. During last weeks I noticed some changes that are giving me more evidence that time is not linear as I always thought. And sure, we already know that from readings and talks. However, experiencing this is another thing. Let me try to describe what happened.

In my work as a medical assistant and driver to the MD at the Doctors Emergency Services I often come across situations that require immediate action. Driving to a certain location, getting entrance to the object where the victim or patient is awaiting us and giving advanced life support. Naturally the MD takes the lead and I assist and follow the orders. When driving, communicating to other emergency services  or forcing ourselves into the object, I am in the main seat and the MD gives me full authority. So we are a good team. And now, more and more often in every part of this work, it is as if someone is talking to me from behind. Like: " do this, do that, beware of that, take care of this, make sure that, follow that direction, have available or at hand". And also things as :"Prepare yourself for". In the beginning I didn't listen very well and was unaware of it. But after a few weeks and some incidents with more impact than usual, it became more conscious. Often I sat down a day later and remembered what happened, overseeing the whole scene again. I remember a few times that I was blessed with this amazing intuition at the right time, for the patient's sake or that of the MD or mine. More and more I became conscious about this inner voice and as a result I began acting according what was asked or said.

And last weeks, the time between consciously experiencing this voice and the actual fact taking place became shorter. And not only during this work. The experience overwhelmed me more than once.

With everything I do, being outside, having a conversation in a group, doing a job or what ever, I hear that voice giving me important information. Like once, it was if there was a carpenter sitting on my shoulder telling me how to saw or grind a piece of wood, or a plumber telling me how to install a central heating device.
It is either that words come to me when I am working on the job, or that I feel pictures of the things to come within a short time.

You can imagine how delighted I am to experience this. Like Simran Singh wrote in one of her books:"We are all able to communicate with the universe". The similarities are there. You have them also, no doubt, like seeing the little signs 11:11 etc. But to be guided immediately and on the spot is a great feeling which I am grateful for.

Ok sure, when assisting or coaching people we are connected as well and the right words are coming out automatically, like channeling, although I do not like the word.
It feels however different in lot of the cases. It is as I am allowed to quickly see a bit further on the timeline from now. And before I know it consciously, I act upon what I have seen or felt. Like my whole being is guided in acting. Sometimes it is a bit weird to find myself acting upon something that has to happen yet. I did often look back to my life. As easily as that was, how difficult it is now. I do not like to look at the past anymore. More and more I let myself go into dreams to come true. More and more I am able to create consciously. Maybe that is why looking backward has changed into looking forward.

Thinking and feeling about this with my heart wide open I suddenly saw the timeline. I saw that straight timeline bend into a circle. Circulair time! Also something I have heard of but not experienced yet. I saw myself on that circulair timeline, able to shift a little forward and backward on the line, giving me the illusion of a straight line. Amazing. And my circulair timeline was interconnected with timelines from other beings. And when you happen to be at the crossing of the two, something magical happens. A deep connection with the other, an ability to connect to the love of the other. Is this SF or what. Is this imagination or just another dream to come true? Look at this sand timer. You can see time as the straight line of the sand pouring down. However the form of the instrument asks to be turned around forming a circle again. Looking at the shape you see two forms (ellips shaped circles) coming together at one magical point. Two non linear timelines touching each other. And there is also something like more than one non linear timeline of myself, like in parallel universa. This one is not quite clear to me at all.

For me this circular timeline also explains why some items keep coming back into my life. They are on my circular timeline and they will keep on passing me until I dare to look at them and work with them.

One thing I know and feel for sure....I really have the benefits of it and accept in full confidence what is happening. The You-niversity of life is a grand roller coaster and we need to take care not to shut our eyes, cause we could easily miss something beautiful. And keep on breathing. There is still a lot to discover and I sure like it.

With Love, Light and for all Laughter.....

Peter

The story of our life

Last week, my wife and me were married for 33 years.
That day we were very busy with the re-decoration of our house so we decided not to party. However, a few days later our daughters and sons in law invited us for a dinner in a fabulous restaurant. We had a wonderful night together as a family. The days after, I had the time to look back at these 33 years. I came to the conclusion it were amazing, fantastic, tough and rough years. In the beginning we could not have enough time to spent in each others arms. Both we were raised as responsible and undependable persons, and all we needed was each other. Those were years of working hard to stay in a financial healthy situation. We decided that my wife would stop working to raise our daughters, while I continued to make career. We had great times, all went well and reasonably comfortable. For the outside world it seemed it could not go better. What they could not see is that we had also real tough times. As a family we were very close and not prepared to show our struggles to the outside world, even not to each other sometimes. And every time, our love won the battle. I remember that after a quarrel we could never go to sleep without having a good discussion, gaining understanding about the situation, and making it up again. Most of the times this happened when we were gone to bed not having distraction from other things like the TV. Yep, those were the nights that we fell asleep after 4 AM.

Both, we had bad times, situations in which we were hospitalized and struggling for our lives. I think, only a few know about these times, and what we endured in these periods. We were afraid, angry and I remember I prayed asking for help. And every time I found that energy to receive or give love and reach out for life. We learned to trust, to assist each other in every situation and I saw how immense beautiful our relationship was. And it still is after 33 years of marriage.


I was born to live an experience as an human. The moment I arrived on earth I made the conclusion that I had to make this place an heaven on earth, because it sure did not feel that way. And sure I did not expected it to be like it was. What I did not realize then, is that I was already in a place that was heaven on earth. I made up all these experiences to learn that I am the creator of my own life, my own happiness. A long time my wife and I thought we were dependent on each other, reaching out hands in assisting to climb the staircase to heaven. Now that we realize that we are independent, and creating our own experiences, life is becoming incredible beautiful. My dreams all came true, something I never could have dreamed off....and I am still dreaming of more to come. I learned to live them. We can change our lives, it has nothing to do with getting older or gaining more insights. We know it all already. It is just our soul that wants to experience some experiences. The soul exactly knows what we need to grow and get access to the insights deep inside of ourselves.

It is with great gratitude that I look at my life, how it was and how it is going to be. And with a great bow I greet and thank every person in my life to have played that main role, to reflect what I needed  to learn.  My wife, my children, family and you dear reader gave me all the opportunity to discover who I really am. And it is still going on.

Life is just starting, life on earth is a playground of joy and happiness, every day is colored in the most amazing ways and I let myself be surprised what every new day will bring. This time we can feel the spring in our bodies more than ever. It is a new start of many exciting and beautiful things to happen. And it is my intention to live this life to the fullest I can, together with my wife and family.
If you want to join us in this celebration of life, you are welcome.

Greeting from my heart to your heart,
In Love, Light and most of all Laughter.

Peter

New Year' Eve Experience

New Year's Eve Experience

I've been working for 32 years at Shell as a chemical research engineer. The last 16 years I switched to the safety department and ended my career as manager of the Emergency Response services of Shell.
During that time I also worked as one of the volunteers at the local fire brigade, for 20 years. First as one of the fire fighters, then as the driver of the fire truck and later as one of the commanding officers.

20 years I've worked at new year's eve. Sitting at home and enjoying the day and evening with family. Most of the time the pager would alarm me for the first time that day around 4 PM. Rushing to the fire station, doing our work and coming home again after 45 minutes or so. That continued till 8 PM. Then it was always quite till 11 PM. The services called for multiple fires from that time. Leaving the house for a return home not earlier than 2 or 3 AM at the first of January. I still can remember the faces of my lovely daughters, looking at me with eyes that said "you will set of the fire works for us this night please" or the face of my dear wife that would make me act very carefully at the streets. I knew that all three of them would wait till I returned home. Often we lightened our fire works at 3 PM. Only the wonderful glittering ones, never bought the big bangs.

I never had problems with working during the night times, especially on nights like Christmas Night or New Year's Eve. I always experienced a kind of different energy in the air, an energy of coherence, of togetherness, sameness, love and companionship.
During these years I learned a lot about the behavior of people during festivities like these. I learned to listen to them and learned to talk with the guys building big fires. Always to prevent further escalation, not to forbid having fun. Sometimes I succeeded, sometimes I needed the help of the colleagues of the fire department or the police. It were special times and I am grateful to my wife and daughters for the patience they had to trust me and to let me go to evolve myself and to experience what I had to learn or just needed to experience. They all were aware of the unsafe situations I could ran into and they were always prepared to listen to my stories when I returned, sometimes funny, sometimes not at all funny.

Nowadays I am working for the Medical Doctors emergency services. Last two years I was not on duty and must admit that I am enjoying that to the max. Together with the family having quality time.
It is my wish and hope that during tonights services my colleagues from the fire department, police, ambulances and medical doctors as well as hospital personnel will have safe times, will have the opportunity to celebrate the new year in all happiness with family friend or colleagues.

And I wish you, dear reader, the most fantastic, lovable, pristine NewYear's eve ever. May 2014 be the year that you will fly high in the sky and are in perfect balance to do whatever you ever dreamt of.

With Love, sparkling Light and lots of Laughter,
Peter

Use your power of love

Many times now I have witnessed the death of a person, or the emotional or physical pain a person can suffer from. Every time when I am confronted with it I am humbly surprised what a little love can do. No matter if a person is young or old, when you show your compassion, share a bit of love, something is happening with that person.
A few times now I saw somebody in the struggle of the dying process. Once I was only in the room and sent my love to the person with the thoughts that all was good and whatever the decision would be, it would be respected. The person died soon afterwards.
Other times I was looking in the eyes of a young child, seeing her unable to speak clearly of what was going on, unable to let us know how afraid she was. And only looking into those eyes with love, compassion and understanding, the child became quite and closed her eyes. The last one I remember clearly was an elder person in the process of leaving the earth. It was not possible to have any contact with the person anymore. Again I felt the stream of love flowing to the person. I needed to lift the arm for technical reasons and the moment I laid down the arm gently the person's face showed a little smile. Surprised I touched the face of the person, and the eyes opened, the smile was there again, and the person died.
Now, you can see this as if I have not such a very good influence on people. However, during my attendance of last Lightworker seminar in Holland, I experienced the same over and over again. And all persons did survive, in fact they were happy to be in my neighborhood. Yes, I played with the energy in the rooms, bringing lightness, joy, warmth, love and laughter, sometimes I was very strict and needed to make fierce statements. But all was done in a energy of love. And again it surprised me what can happen for the benefit of all when love is flowing freely.

And therefore I ask anyone who is known with this, and anyone who is not quite familiar with this to give it a try. Let everything you do or say be accompanied with a flow of love, passion, light and laughter. See what happens to the world around you. It will be of benefit to yourself as well.

And please send a bit of this flow to the Philippines. Imagine how desolated the people over there can be after this hurricane moment. People lost their belongings and worse, they lost their beloved ones not knowing even if they are dead or alive. And as written above, if we know what this love can do to people who are dying or just died, why wouldn't we sent some of our abundant love to them. Not to heal them because they are already, but to support them in the journey they want to experience.

Love you all
Light, Love and Laughter, from heart to heart

Peter

Lichaamstaal

For English version click: Body language

Je hebt de term "lichaamstaal" vast wel eens gehoord. Vandaag wil ik schrijven over een ander soort lichaamstaal...hoewel, misschien toch niet anders. hier is het verhaal.

Gedurende mijn leven ben ik diverse manieren tegengekomen om meer met mijn eigen lichaam in contact te komen, meer met wie ik werkelijk ben, om mijn leven meer inhoud te geven en om die zaken kwijt te raken die negatief voor me uitpakten. Ik volgde veel cursussen over (emotioneel) lichaamswerk, Reiki, Qigong, de Helende Reis, Rebalancing, diverse modules vanuit Lightworker, en mijn leven werd steeds stabieler, overvloediger en vreugdevoller.

Nog nooit heb ik het leven zo mooi en vol van liefde ervaren als tegenwoordig. Ik ben vol dankbaarheid naar het leven zelf. Natuurlijk weet ik ook wel dat het allemaal gemanifesteerd wordt door mijn eigen verlangens en dromen, en ik ben dan ook nooit gestopt om er in te blijven geloven. Ik respecteer en eer dan ook, datgene wat om ons heen is en wat ons helpt om datgene te krijgen wat we nodig hebben op een diepe manier.
En toch, de laatste maanden heb ik last van verschillende pijntjes, niet erg, maar wel erg oncomfortabel. Elleboog, ruggengraat, tanden, hoofd, schouders. En ze komen regelmatig terug. Word ik ouder? Is het de nieuwe energie waarbij onze lichamen mogen veranderen om in hogere frequenties te kunnen zijn? Het is geen stress of zwaar werk. Maar wat is het dan? Een ding komt echt regelmatig terug en dat geeft zorgt voor heel wat probleempjes gedurende de dagelijkse praktijk. En dat is dat het in mijn onderrug schiet. Soms, alleen al bij het optillen van een kopje thee voel ik een steek wat maakt dat ik me een dag of soms twee minder makkelijk kan bewegen. Op andere dagen kan ik zwaar werk doen, tillen en in de meest onhandige houding aan het werk zijn zonder problemen.
Vanmorgen werd ik wakker met het idee om er eens rustig en comfortabel voor te gaan zitten en te zien of er een antwoord in me op zou komen op deze kwestie. Ik besloot om mijn lichaam gewoon te vragen of het me meer kon en wilde vertellen. Ik moest denken aan een aantal Journey technieken en meteen zag ik mezelf door mijn ruggengraat naar beneden zakken, precies naar de pijnlijke plek. Daar aangekomen keek ik in het rond en voelde al direct een soort kou en "niet begrepen zijn". Dus ik vroeg aan de ruggengraat wat er aan de hand was. Het antwoord wat meteen kwam was dat het zich niet sterk genoeg voelde om mij staande te houden en te supporten in alles wat ik deed en wilde doen. Ergens herkende ik dit wel, het was een heel oude overtuiging van mijzelf, waar ik jaren geleden ook al eens aan had gewerkt. Ik werd nu gewezen op een van de nekwervels (de zesde, werd me verteld terwijl ik niet eens weet of deze bestaat). Maar goed, daar was het dan, en de boodschap kwam meteen binnen: "Jouw denken heeft ons altijd laten weten dat wij als wervels erg kwetsbaar zijn, speciaal toen na dat ongeluk". Plotseling kwam alles ineens weer terug. Toen ik 17 was heb ik een ongeluk gehad op het honkbalveld tijdens een wedstrijd waarbij ik een ernstige blessure aan de nek opliep en drie maanden in het ziekenhuis heb gelegen. Nadat ik weer op de been was bleek mijn nek nog een aantal jaren zeer gevoelig voor aanrakingen en niemand mocht mij daar dus aanraken. Het was toen dat de overtuiging van kwetsbaarheid zich nestelde in de nek en door werd gecommuniceerd naar de rest van de ruggengraat. Ik besloot aan de wervels uit te leggen dat het voor die tijd een uiterst goede beslissing was, een goede bescherming tegen verdere beschadiging, maar dat we gedurende de jaren meer hebben geleerd en dat de tijd alles heeft geheeld. De overtuiging kon nu beter plaats maken voor iets wat veel gezonder zou zijn. Dus we gingen akkoord dat er een nieuwe gezondere boodschap doorgegeven mocht worden vanuit de hersenen, door de nekwervels naar de ruggengraat en de spieren. Een boodschap vol liefde, en over lenig zijn, sterk en gezond zijn. Een boodschap die gedragen werd door licht en gezondheid. Elke cel in het lichaam reageerde door akkoord te gaan om het oude door deze nieuwe boodschap te vervangen. Terwijl dat gebeurde, wilde ook het hart gehoord worden. Het hart liet weten dat het lichaam, de cellen het dna, en heel belangrijk ook de hersenen (mind), vaker moesten luisteren naar wat het hart te zeggen had. Het werd tijd dat naast het in balans brengen van hart en geest (mind) ook een samenwerkingsverband zou gaan plaats vinden tussen deze twee. En zo werd besloten met mijn hele zijn. Een intense warmte stroomde door mijn hele lichaam. Heerlijk.  Ik had het gevoel dat het gedaan was met deze sessie en besloot de geplande activiteiten van de dag te gaan uitvoeren: reparatie van de wasmachinekraan, de vlotter van de toilet en de pomp van de waterval in de tuin.

Toen ik begon werd me door mijn rug meteen aangegeven om de werkzaamheden een dag uit te stellen en ik ging meteen akkoord. Toen realiseerde ik me ineens dat alles deze ochtend te maken had met het stromen van energie, water in een niet optimale vorm. Ik moest zachtjes lachen. De laatste boodschap die ik meekreeg is om dit verhaal op te schrijven en te delen. Enerzijds voor mezelf (om het te laten integreren) en anderzijds is er misschien iemand die er van kan profiteren als dit gelezen wordt.
OK, en morgen laat ik jullie weten hoe dit stukje prachtige lichaamstaal uitgewerkt heeft.

Nou het heeft gewerkt hoor. Op het moment dat ik met het schrijven van dit stuk klaar was, was de rugpijn verdwenen. Op dezelfde dag nog. En vandaag ook. Nu zit ik hier in de vroege ochtendzon en dank ik mijn lichaam en mezelf dat we de tijd hebben genomen om te helen, op een diep niveau.
Lichaamstaal....het kan voor veel meer worden gebruikt als we dachten.


With Love, Light and Laughter from Heart to Heart,
Peter


PS (Synchroniciteit ten top) Een dag na het schrijven van dit artikel, zat dit in mijn email:

That thing you're dealing with right now, Peter... is not by chance. 

It's the beginning of the most exciting transformation of your life, so far. 

Birds in the sky... 
    The Universe

Body language

Voor Nederlandse versie klik: Lichaamstaal

You must have heard of the term "body language". Today I want to write about a kind of different body language...well maybe not so different. Here's the story.

During my life I have come across different ways to get more in touch with who I really am, to enrich my life, to get rid of the things that worked out negatively for me. I followed workshops, seminars and courses about (emotional) body work, Reiki, Qigong, The Healing Journey, Rebalancing, several modalities at Lightworker and my life became more and more stable, abundant and joyful.

Never I experienced life so beautiful and full of love as nowadays. I am fulfilled with gratitude towards life itself. Yes sure, I know it is all manifested by my own desires and dreams, and I never stopped believing in them, however I deeply respect and honor that what is surrounding us and assisting us in everything we need.
And yet, last couple of months I am suffering from several pains, minor ones, but still very uncomfortable. Elbow, spine, teeth, head, shoulders. All coming back regularly. Is this from getting older? Is it the new energy, changing body templates? It is not about stress, or heavy work. But what is it? One particular item comes back all the time giving me some trouble in day to day activities. And that is the trouble with the spine in the lower back. Sometimes, just by lifting a cup of tea, the back hurts, which continues one or two days. Other times I can lift heavy stuff and work in strange positions without any problem.
This morning I woke up with the idea to sit for a while in a very comfortable position to see if any answer would come up. I decided to ask my body if it would tell me something about these discomforts. I remembered some Journey techniques and immediately I saw myself going down into my spine, right to the painful spot. Arrived there, I looked around and felt a kind of coldness and misunderstanding. So I asked the spine what was going on. The direct answer was that it felt not strong enough to hold me and to support me with the things I did and wanted to do. Somehow I did recognize it. It was an old, very old belief system where I have worked on many years ago, which was coming in that time from a different part in my body. I was directed to one of the vertebrae in my neck (the sixth, I do not even know if this one exists). However there it was, the message came out: Your mind always told me that we as vertebrae were always very vulnerable, especially after the accident. Suddenly it all came back. When I was 17, I had a severe neck injury and was hospitalized for three months after an accident during a baseball game. After recovery my neck was very sensitive for years and nobody was allowed to touch it. It was at that time that the believe was stored that the neck (and the rest of the spine) was vulnerable. After convincing the neck vertebrae and the mind that is was at that time the perfect guardian for further damage and injuries, we now learned together that time has changed everything and that that message was not correct anymore. So we agreed a new and more sound message to spread from the mind through the neck and spine all the way to the muscles. A message with love, and about being lean, strong and healthy, carrying light and wellness. Every cell agreed with it and replaced the old for the new message. With that happening, also the heart wanted to be heard. It said that the body, the cells and dna, and most important also the mind had to listen more often to the heart. It was time to not only to have balance between heart and mind but also to have a cooperation between them. And so it was decided with the whole of who I am. An intense warmth was flowing through the body. I had the feeling it was all done and went back to my planned activities for the day: repairing a water tap from the washing machine, the waterstop of the toilet and the pump of the waterfall in the garden.

When I started my back told me to postpone it to the next day and I agreed. Then I realized that all these items had something in common: Flows of water or energy, not optimal organized. I laughed. The last message I received is to write this story down, for myself (extra time to let it integrate) and who knows, for somebody else who might benefit from the story. OK. Tomorrow I will let you know how this litlle magnificent body language has worked out.

Well it worked I can tell you. The minute I finished this writing the back pain was disappeared. Now in the early morning, greeting the sun, I thank my body and myself to have taken time to heal.
Body language.....it can be used for lot more than we ever thought.

With Love, Light and Laughter from Heart to Heart,
Peter

PS (Synchronicity at its best) One day after writing this article I found this in the email:

That thing you're dealing with right now, Peter... is not by chance. 

It's the beginning of the most exciting transformation of your life, so far. 

Birds in the sky... 
    The Universe