The illusion of time

Dear reader,
These blogs are all about my experiences. I have heard often the feedback that it resonates with others and that it is helpful to them. Sometimes it is nice to read other one's story to get an idea or a glimpse of their way of experiencing, their journey. For me, reading always helped to get another perspective, another view on my story. Therefore I like to share one of my experiences, not only to get more clarity for myself, but also because I like sharing. And if only one person is helped with it, it was already worthwhile.
So enjoy.

What is it with time nowadays? There is a load of information about time available, but for me, it gets real when I myself can experience it. And I am, although it is not quite clear how I have to describe it.
I used to see time as something that consists of experiences in the past, the now or in the future. That always worked out well for me. I have heard about time being linear and it did fit well in my mind. During last weeks I noticed some changes that are giving me more evidence that time is not linear as I always thought. And sure, we already know that from readings and talks. However, experiencing this is another thing. Let me try to describe what happened.

In my work as a medical assistant and driver to the MD at the Doctors Emergency Services I often come across situations that require immediate action. Driving to a certain location, getting entrance to the object where the victim or patient is awaiting us and giving advanced life support. Naturally the MD takes the lead and I assist and follow the orders. When driving, communicating to other emergency services  or forcing ourselves into the object, I am in the main seat and the MD gives me full authority. So we are a good team. And now, more and more often in every part of this work, it is as if someone is talking to me from behind. Like: " do this, do that, beware of that, take care of this, make sure that, follow that direction, have available or at hand". And also things as :"Prepare yourself for". In the beginning I didn't listen very well and was unaware of it. But after a few weeks and some incidents with more impact than usual, it became more conscious. Often I sat down a day later and remembered what happened, overseeing the whole scene again. I remember a few times that I was blessed with this amazing intuition at the right time, for the patient's sake or that of the MD or mine. More and more I became conscious about this inner voice and as a result I began acting according what was asked or said.

And last weeks, the time between consciously experiencing this voice and the actual fact taking place became shorter. And not only during this work. The experience overwhelmed me more than once.

With everything I do, being outside, having a conversation in a group, doing a job or what ever, I hear that voice giving me important information. Like once, it was if there was a carpenter sitting on my shoulder telling me how to saw or grind a piece of wood, or a plumber telling me how to install a central heating device.
It is either that words come to me when I am working on the job, or that I feel pictures of the things to come within a short time.

You can imagine how delighted I am to experience this. Like Simran Singh wrote in one of her books:"We are all able to communicate with the universe". The similarities are there. You have them also, no doubt, like seeing the little signs 11:11 etc. But to be guided immediately and on the spot is a great feeling which I am grateful for.

Ok sure, when assisting or coaching people we are connected as well and the right words are coming out automatically, like channeling, although I do not like the word.
It feels however different in lot of the cases. It is as I am allowed to quickly see a bit further on the timeline from now. And before I know it consciously, I act upon what I have seen or felt. Like my whole being is guided in acting. Sometimes it is a bit weird to find myself acting upon something that has to happen yet. I did often look back to my life. As easily as that was, how difficult it is now. I do not like to look at the past anymore. More and more I let myself go into dreams to come true. More and more I am able to create consciously. Maybe that is why looking backward has changed into looking forward.

Thinking and feeling about this with my heart wide open I suddenly saw the timeline. I saw that straight timeline bend into a circle. Circulair time! Also something I have heard of but not experienced yet. I saw myself on that circulair timeline, able to shift a little forward and backward on the line, giving me the illusion of a straight line. Amazing. And my circulair timeline was interconnected with timelines from other beings. And when you happen to be at the crossing of the two, something magical happens. A deep connection with the other, an ability to connect to the love of the other. Is this SF or what. Is this imagination or just another dream to come true? Look at this sand timer. You can see time as the straight line of the sand pouring down. However the form of the instrument asks to be turned around forming a circle again. Looking at the shape you see two forms (ellips shaped circles) coming together at one magical point. Two non linear timelines touching each other. And there is also something like more than one non linear timeline of myself, like in parallel universa. This one is not quite clear to me at all.

For me this circular timeline also explains why some items keep coming back into my life. They are on my circular timeline and they will keep on passing me until I dare to look at them and work with them.

One thing I know and feel for sure....I really have the benefits of it and accept in full confidence what is happening. The You-niversity of life is a grand roller coaster and we need to take care not to shut our eyes, cause we could easily miss something beautiful. And keep on breathing. There is still a lot to discover and I sure like it.

With Love, Light and for all Laughter.....

Peter

The story of our life

Last week, my wife and me were married for 33 years.
That day we were very busy with the re-decoration of our house so we decided not to party. However, a few days later our daughters and sons in law invited us for a dinner in a fabulous restaurant. We had a wonderful night together as a family. The days after, I had the time to look back at these 33 years. I came to the conclusion it were amazing, fantastic, tough and rough years. In the beginning we could not have enough time to spent in each others arms. Both we were raised as responsible and undependable persons, and all we needed was each other. Those were years of working hard to stay in a financial healthy situation. We decided that my wife would stop working to raise our daughters, while I continued to make career. We had great times, all went well and reasonably comfortable. For the outside world it seemed it could not go better. What they could not see is that we had also real tough times. As a family we were very close and not prepared to show our struggles to the outside world, even not to each other sometimes. And every time, our love won the battle. I remember that after a quarrel we could never go to sleep without having a good discussion, gaining understanding about the situation, and making it up again. Most of the times this happened when we were gone to bed not having distraction from other things like the TV. Yep, those were the nights that we fell asleep after 4 AM.

Both, we had bad times, situations in which we were hospitalized and struggling for our lives. I think, only a few know about these times, and what we endured in these periods. We were afraid, angry and I remember I prayed asking for help. And every time I found that energy to receive or give love and reach out for life. We learned to trust, to assist each other in every situation and I saw how immense beautiful our relationship was. And it still is after 33 years of marriage.


I was born to live an experience as an human. The moment I arrived on earth I made the conclusion that I had to make this place an heaven on earth, because it sure did not feel that way. And sure I did not expected it to be like it was. What I did not realize then, is that I was already in a place that was heaven on earth. I made up all these experiences to learn that I am the creator of my own life, my own happiness. A long time my wife and I thought we were dependent on each other, reaching out hands in assisting to climb the staircase to heaven. Now that we realize that we are independent, and creating our own experiences, life is becoming incredible beautiful. My dreams all came true, something I never could have dreamed off....and I am still dreaming of more to come. I learned to live them. We can change our lives, it has nothing to do with getting older or gaining more insights. We know it all already. It is just our soul that wants to experience some experiences. The soul exactly knows what we need to grow and get access to the insights deep inside of ourselves.

It is with great gratitude that I look at my life, how it was and how it is going to be. And with a great bow I greet and thank every person in my life to have played that main role, to reflect what I needed  to learn.  My wife, my children, family and you dear reader gave me all the opportunity to discover who I really am. And it is still going on.

Life is just starting, life on earth is a playground of joy and happiness, every day is colored in the most amazing ways and I let myself be surprised what every new day will bring. This time we can feel the spring in our bodies more than ever. It is a new start of many exciting and beautiful things to happen. And it is my intention to live this life to the fullest I can, together with my wife and family.
If you want to join us in this celebration of life, you are welcome.

Greeting from my heart to your heart,
In Love, Light and most of all Laughter.

Peter